A Broken Hamster Wheel

GristMill-triptych-web

I got a little antsy at the house today. Sometimes I have so much energy and want to do everything, and that leads me to doing nothing. Just standing in the middle of the floor trying to decide what to do. So instead of just standing and pondering, I got my keys and left. I’m going to start a 365 project. Most people start these in January, but because my new beginning began early, I guess I will too.

I rode all around Stone Mountain even though I knew I was going to end up at the Grist Mill. I’ve never been all around it, and that’s unfortunate. I’m going to make that part of my daily trip. Anyway, I made it to the mill and as I walked around I noticed some sticks in the water. I’m still working on that one, but this one was made into a triptych by Analog Efex in the Nik (Google) filter. I haven’t used this particular filter before, but I think it represents where I am right now. I was on the hamster wheel, and now, it’s completely broken. I like it, maybe I’ll print this out for some wall art.

View from the Corner Office

I’ve have lots of time to work on making cards and exploring crafting more. I was commissioned to make 25 cards and envelopes for my good friend. I wasn’t technically paid but I got paper and a new stamp! Hooray!! Except….I didn’t factor in tape, glitter or my time. So I messed up. I’ve learned a good lesson on pricing…so the entrepreneurship journey continues.

How to get laid off and be ok with it

I got fired (laid off) yesterday. Thank God. To be honest, I hated my job. I hated going, I hated the red tape, I hated the games, I hated my cubicle. I liked my friends though, and of course the warm, security blanket of my bi-weekly paychecks. Aside from that, the things I’ll miss the most after  8 years are the copier and supply closest (hey, don’t judge me.)

Everyone is kinda sad for me, which is weird, because I’m not even sad for myself. I’m so, so happy right now. I’m energetic, hopeful. At peace. I feel like I’m 6 years old and it’s Christmas Eve. I know something is about to happen, I just don’t know what. Awesomeness is around the corner.

I started calling myself self employed immediately. Cube life just doesn’t suit me. I hate it. I do have a problem though. I’m not the greatest at planning, goal setting, selling…you know, all the things that make entrepreneurs, well….entrepreneurs. So that will be  a bit of a learning curve. My true blessing is that I’ve spent the past 2-3 years sitting in my cube changing my mindset. I had to unlearn so much about how I treated and thought of myself, how I valued myself, how I viewed money and just rewriting the data on my brain’s hard drive. Thank God I don’t have to start there. I would have been so distraught had this happened then. Now I’m like “Bring it on!!”

The Long Walk

I got laid off at 3:00 today. I feel like it’s the best thing that has ever happened to me. 2.5 hours later, I still don’t have any fear, trepidation, sadness or anger. I am so excited for my future. Has anyone else been excited to be pushed out of the nest? Going to chronicle this new journey of mine…